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I'm considering opening a new account. . . . I have my reasons
For one I rarely ever upload anymore because this account is so very cluttered.
Also my style of art has been changing quite a bit lately. I've been working more and more on anatomy and face shapes that I've kinda drawn away from the style I've been posting to this account.  It's mostly been for my art course at college in September and I just think it'd be a bit strange with a jump from one style to the next. Of course I wouldn't just start posting again in September; I HOPE to do this in the summer . . .
My scanner is a bit of a fail as well, which has meant all my drawings look really, how can I put this lightly, crap! Plan to fix this by 'scanner shopping' this summer.

If I do start a new account I'd obviously keep watching the same people and groups as I do already, and if you do watch me and read this, I hope you continue to follow my new account as well.

One more thing, I've begun to dislike the name I have. It's just not that interesting. I mean it's my name, but really it's just some rubbish I came up with in my Eddie Izzard Obsessive phase

This ain't decided yet
I just need opinions - Ah'm talking to you Staxel, Neko, Cactus and Kaia

ok I haven't uploaded anything in like a millenia!! D: gah it's so badd
in fact, I haven't even DRAWN anything in like a millenia DX

since my summer started all I have really been doing is cycling, dirt jumping, skating, writing and partying. . . no time to draw >.<
I really really must make time and do more on anatomy or else I swear I will FAIL art next year
urgh need to draw need to draw need to draw T-T

When she first told me, I wondered. I mean I was happy, I was interested and I was willing to help in any way, but still I wondered. I wondered because it was you. Since you came, we've been friends, really good friends. I mean you're like a brother to me and she's like a sister. How brilliant, I thought, it would be if things did turn out.
I was as naive as her though. As much as I tried to help, I didn't see until the end. Only just before she did. You weren't interested. She even got jealous that you spoke to me more than her, which made me feel horrible because she felt bad for it. She knew as much as I knew that I only think of you as a friend, but still it got to her.
Because you wouldn't talk to her, you wouldn't look at her, but you knew. I know you knew. You knew and yet you didn't even grant her a brief conversation let alone a proper friendship. It made me wonder, do guys have any feelings? Do they know how hurt a girl can get? I tried to tell myself they do, because love can exist. Because it does exist, somewhere in this world. If not for me, which I don't mind, then for someone, somewhere. I tried to tell myself you do have a heart. But clearly you can't have much of one.
She liked you, you knew, and yet you asked another girl. OK people can like who they will, but you didn't even say anything to her. You just left her out, keeping her on the side for when you want her. Maybe it's not all guys, because I know people who wouldn't do that. Maybe it is just you. When I found out, all I wanted to do was curl up in a corner by myself. It wasn't for me, but for her. Because I'd lost hope and I knew that she would only be worse. I knew there was nothing I could do to help.
Why hadn't we seen it before? Why hadn't we realised there's some people you're interested in and others you're not? You hurt someone before and I defended you then. I couldn't hate you then because you're my friend. Like I can't hate you now.
Despite what's happened, what you've done to her, how stupid you've been, I can't hate you. Because you're like a brother to me. And as much as I want to beat the crap out of you for what's happened, what you've done for her and how stupid you've been I never will. What's worse is I can't hate the other girl because she's so close to me as well.
Whatever happens now, I hope you know I'm not there for you. I'm there for her. And only her.

yeah I hate the stuff
dammit why are people so complex!!!!

ahem

well at least it's not wolves or cats or something. . . . I'm a REAL fail at animals. . . . Cactus will tell you XD

So my latest grumble has been over anatomy (that and the weather which is freaking ridiculous for this time of year. But you know that rant comes naturally when you're born a Brit). I've been all over the internet and libraries looking for anatomy and I either end up with some really complex bonal structure thing which scare the death out of me, or the simplest cartoon in the universe -.- I did however stumble across one which broke it down quite simply and I'm going from there. I managed some fairly good upper body drawings which I WILL post, someday. As for the legs though, it's a no go zone. I can draw them, but not attached to people, so I end up with legs running away from their body. I had a similar problem with arms at one point and what didn't help when using myself as a reference is that I have Hyper-extendable Elbows. . . . . all my people came out with freakish limbs which doesn't really say much for me now does it :/

I WILL get there, I just need some practice >.< gaaaawwwwwd I hope I do before College next year, otherwise my art lessons will SUCK -.-

In other news, I had my LAST exam today WOO
Geoggers and I OWNED I swear. Possibly the easiest exam I had although this isn't always good news. Seeing as everyone seemed to say it was simples, those horrid people called 'Examiners' are likely to become even more horrid and push the grade boundaries up :/
Not good, but at least school's over until PROM OMG

PS
I have two moods atm, so that little thing at the bottom only accounts for one. . . the other is: >.<

PPS
A little quote from our geography exam-prep lesson:
"this BIG, BLANK SPACE is for an annotated diagram. . . . and if you're Lorna, you can do a little doodle"- Mr See, the Legend ^^

Sooo as any of you that follow me know, I have an 'ell of a time dealing with scanners -.-
I posted a couple of months back that I found a good one, but unfortunately it belongs to the school and it being the holidays I have no access to one WHAT SO EVER
what is even worse is how much drawing I have been doing which I can't post T.T
I've been reading the hunger games which is epic, I have a truck load of books waiting to be read back home- I am number four, The knife of never letting go, THE SHINING O.o (if it gets too scary it is going to go in the freezer. . .) and strangely I bought a copy of Twilight today. I started reading that about a year ago and never finished. . . but they've had this 3 for 2 deal on at Waterstone's and I couldn't resist. Unfortunately those Cassandra Clare books aren't on that deal, so I'm going to have to buy them full price D:
gawd I really do digress far too much sometimes
so where was I
SCANNERS
yeah I was wondering if you guys could give me some 'advice' on which scanners are the best . . . I was going to do a poll, but really I don't know of that many scanners XD

thank you ^^